Be me...RBE

As I leave my house to go get Annabelle ready for the michigan trip, car is packed tears already shed. I appreciate so much of what I learned of myself during my externship. I always struggled with 'well what horsenality am I' and to a lot it may not matter. I like knowing so I can help myself understand myself and be OK with what I'm feeling. AND know what strategies to use to better myself for those around me. I've always tried to suppress myself and I always felt like crap. When I find someone I can express myself to and have more RBE tendencies I feel so alive and on fire. I got myself so worried that I'm not okay. Instead of looking for a solution to help myself be more calm. While packing this morning I couldn't sit still, I had to have music on, and my emotions were going crazy. So I forced myself to sit down and focus on why I'm going back to michigan. Doing this every half hour- or so... I found more peace. Instead of thinking about
everything I'm afraid of I tried changing my thoughts to my dream. So for the first time in a really really longtime I feel okay with me and who I am. For a minute ;)

The Move Back

After many hours of thought, tears, excitement, planning, and making decisions. I am moving back to Michigan! I believe it is the best thing for Annabelle and I. I will be staying with my best friend Heather and Annabelle will be right outside the door! Heather is going to help me get Annabelle's muscles in top shape for this summer. Meanwhile I will be playing with lots of other horses. If you want me to play with yours let me know! My focus with Annabelle is to get my level four, in the next month or so. The main reason is because there is a lot more opportunity that has already presented itself in Michigan. We will be leaving tomorrow! I know Annabelle isn't going to love the 20+ hour trailer ride but I know she will be happy to be on Michigan grass!! 

Support

I have had a pretty amazing weekend with the Parelli Summit going on, I got to catch up with some friends from my fast track. I am so grateful for the support I have from around the world. You guys keep me going, I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for the amazing support I get. All of the positive things people say about my journey with Annabelle and how far we have come means so much to me. It's the fuel to keep me looking into the future.  I haven't publicly announced my goals and dreams with Annabelle but now feels like the right time. My goal is to do eventing with her, and my dream-goal is to go as far as the Rolex with her.  She's incredibly talented I just need to catch up! I'm going to take it slow and go at her pace and ability (and mine!). But I'm pretty excited for our future following my externship which is over at the end of the week :(. I have learned so much being here and can't wait for all the info to sink into my brain. To all of my supporters, thank you! You have made a big difference.