Don't let go

It has been a really good past coupe days. I got a job interview on Tuesday for a paraprofessional in a school either with a kindergarten class or with the school nurse. I'm very excited! Next week I am assisting Kim with her summer camp AND she gave me a list of horses that need Parelli. So that is super exciting. I realized today that I know a lot more then I think but that there is still a TON for me to learn and experience. I suppose each experience will make me a better horsewoman. It is a lot more pressure at this new barn to really be the best I can be.  I represent Parelli here, I represent myself more then I have in the past. I try to ride and do my level 4 stuff when no one is around because I want to be a proper role model for all these young girls that Kim has told to look up to me. I still feel like a student- I hope that never goes away. The experience I lack is with other horses and other horsenalities. The horse Chip that I played with today is awesome at online and liberty (Liberty with a left brain is so fun!!!!). But someone from his past really screwed him up in the saddle. Every movement meant collect and go faster. I put some hay in the middle of the arena to help him stand still and relax. He couldn't at first and finally he blew out and hook his head licked and chewed and was able to stand still and be in a more learning frame of mind instead of robot mode. So far I like him and I think I can do a lot for him.

I don't like to get too mushy in these posts. But tonight it feels right. Remembering all the days at school being bullying, talked about,

given dirty looks, feeling undervalued as a person, I finally feel like I am doing some good in the world. In a way I feel grateful for those experiences because there is going to be someone out there that needs someone to understand. Like chip today- he just wanted me to understand his feelings and that he had ideas too. So many people forget that horses are real animals- they have thoughts and feelings just like people do. You have to find a way to listen to them. Anyways, it feels good to be making a positive impact. <3

Annabelle has a new boyfriend, Hershey